Comic 508 - Speak with Fuse

Posted on 13th Oct 2017, 8:17 PM in Doors
Speak with Fuse

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Morgenstern 13th Oct 2017, 8:17 PM edit delete
Morgenstern
You ask Fuse if he's okay.

"Yeah." He leaves it at that, for a moment, before heaving a sigh.

"Caius was right. I'm trying so hard not to be a problem that I'm making it a problem. I'm just used to... I dunno. There came a point growing up when I stopped having friends and started having accomplices. People didn't trust me, people needed me. I made myself useful so I wouldn't get stabbed in the back. If I'm too needy, or I can't get the job done, I'm... if I'm just a drain on resources or putting people in danger then I'm dead weight."

You tell him that it's not like that. Fuse isn't just the guy that picks the locks and hacks the computers, he's your friend.

"Yeah." He pauses. "Maybe I shouldn't be. I... I hate what happened to Howler, but I keep thinking... it could have been me. Any of Prophet's freaks, the guys that injected you, any of those. I ran the same circles those guys did. I did break ins, I stole, I sold drugs. If they'd decided to mind jack me sooner than they did, I could have just been one more mutant jumping out of a locker or... or starting fires in the middle tiers. I'm not special, I got lucky. I could just as easily be in prison or dead or... hopped up on Queen, getting told about this brunette monster we all gotta take out. Like, I keep telling myself I'm smarter than that, but... I thought Howler was, too."

He stares off the edge of the platform, silent for several seconds.

"I'm not a good person. I... I sold Queen to people. I helped distribute that shit. I didn't know what it was back then, but... that's not an excuse. I did a lot of awful stuff and I just..." He sighs. "It's hard to ask for your help when I know I helped cause this."

Comments:

rufiangel 13th Oct 2017, 8:52 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Oh, Fuse. So that's what's been weighing so heavily on you this whole time.

We don't know what you were up to before, but right now we know you're doing everything you can to make things right. All of us have made mistakes and done things we're not proud of, and all of us got lucky, but that doesn't negate anything you've been doing uptil now. We see someone who's tirelessly putting others first and taking full responsibility for things Howler did, even though he doesn't have to.

You're not good, you're a great person, Fuse.

If it's appropriate... Gently set our Red down for a moment,tell Fuse he can ask for help any time he wants, we don't blame him for any of this, so he can stop blaming himself, and Hug.
Steve 13th Oct 2017, 8:56 PM edit delete reply
Rufi get's it. I love how we reached the same final conclusion.

Which is hugs.
Steve 13th Oct 2017, 8:54 PM edit delete reply
Everyone makes mistakes. First you gotta admit to them, then you need to learn from them. Move forward, and don't let what's behind you hold you back. Don't forget the past, but don't be limited by it. The important thing isn't what you did, it's what you do now.

Also, hugs.
Mochi 13th Oct 2017, 9:09 PM edit delete reply
Mochi
fuse, honey... have you not noticed our trend of literally not giving two shits about what people did before they met us?

michelle was paid to kill or capture us. she's probably done some fucked up shit on vasquez's orders in the past. if we hadn't been so fixated on making sure she didn't die, she would've handed us over in a heartbeat.

doesn't matter. she's our friend now, that's what counts, that's all that matters.

caius would likely have killed us without hesitation (or in the very least, dragged us to macland and let him kill us) had we not syringed him, and had he seen us come out of that vent. he himself has said he's done fucked up shit in the past. he worked for gesenai shirai for almost a year. he took orders from macland row for almost a year.

doesn't matter. he's our friend, he's protected us on more than one occasion, and has sworn he'd do it again. that's literally all that matters here.

we don't care that you sold queen. we don't care that you've broken more laws than you have fingers to count them on. doesn't matter. you're our friend now. you're with us now. that's what matters. that's all that matters. and yeah, you are lucky. you've been pretty lucky since the day we met you. survivor's guilt is a hell of a thing, buddy, but the best way to get through it is to make sure you're here and you're in a condition to help so that some other kid might be as lucky as you were because they won't have to deal with this shit to begin with.
Skybirds15 13th Oct 2017, 9:16 PM edit delete reply
Survivor's guilt'll get ya. The good news is, Fuse only feels that way because he sees everyone as a person instead of a tool or on obstacle. The bad news is... yeah.

We are all lucky. We were lucky to born in the first place, and Fuse is lucky enough to be able to help others, but only if he himself makes sure he can. We can't read your mind (yet) Fuse, you need to take care of yourself so you can make sure there are no more Howlers, Prophets, Thales, at least in this city.
Anonymous 13th Oct 2017, 9:23 PM edit delete reply
Slap him then kISS HIM

Oh sorry, my shipper is showing
Steve 13th Oct 2017, 9:29 PM edit delete reply
Slapping him might call him to fall to his death. Remember, we are over a bottomless hole with a floor installed. Let's not do anything too drastic. Hugs are fine. We can use hugs to keep him from falling off the edge.
Mochi 13th Oct 2017, 9:33 PM edit delete reply
Mochi
slapping him would also be bad on account of the fact that he has second degree burns over most of his body
Steve 13th Oct 2017, 9:46 PM edit delete reply
ALSO THIS.
Anonymous 13th Oct 2017, 9:53 PM edit delete reply
Honestly forgot about the fact that he had burns for some reason...
Guest 13th Oct 2017, 9:46 PM edit delete reply
I also think Jane's a bit too sweet to just slap him out of nowhere. :P
Kitty 13th Oct 2017, 10:42 PM edit delete reply
Yes, Jane is too hug to slap. And also too hug to kiss. Platonic and wholesome af. The aura of kittens personified.
Blue_Elite 13th Oct 2017, 11:13 PM edit delete reply
Don't you mean "purrsonified"? :3 (Well, someone had to do it)
DrBilly 13th Oct 2017, 10:34 PM edit delete reply
Hugs are ill-advised when we're interacting with a person who is missing most of his skin. It should probably be an "IOU 1 hug" situation.

Also, I'm gonna miss Baby Red when it gets reassimilated into the main Red mind. You did a great job, lil' fella.
Kitty 13th Oct 2017, 10:45 PM edit delete reply
Maybe bab meatball will be able to stick around after serving its purpose? Like, once the tendril of red has been grown, the main red body can send over more material for making the wall-mouth and we can detach bab red again and keep it?

It's too smol and precious, I've gotten really attached :C

Maybe we can get an even more smol version for portability? After all, its location-finding ability is proving to be quite useful. Once we've established a second red location, that should just make the location finder even *better* because it could use both reds as a reference point and thus be able to hopefully discern location to a certain extent and not just distance.
Blue_Elite 13th Oct 2017, 11:16 PM edit delete reply
It can be a comfort hug. Not a big hug, just a gentle embrace for a moment.

On that note we should also give Baby Red a hug before xe becomes too "walled" to be hugged.
Deadly Death Sickle 13th Oct 2017, 10:43 PM edit delete reply
Deadly Death Sickle
hug fuse, tell him that what you do, isn't always who you are, what you think of the world and how you want to shape it, is who you are. Your a good person fuse, you need to believe more on the good things you do, not the bad. Tell him that just because he sold queen doesn't make him a bad person, he didn't even know what it was. Tell him to believe in himself. Tell him we care about him, we all do, and he should understand that live isn't fair sometimes... tell him that no matter what he did... he will always be our friend... hug him harder...
Guest 13th Oct 2017, 10:50 PM edit delete reply
Idk if he'd be for hugs, considering the burnt situation, but hold/squeeze his hand instead if that's any better.

And tell him that even if he did it, he said it himself that he didn't know then. But now he knows, and he recognizes the issue - and that's the first step to fixing the issue. Not to mention that he ain't alone in this either, the others care, Jane cares, and we're all in this together.

((Idk how to do words well but i hope that kinda sums it up well enough :P))
Dragon_ANGL 14th Oct 2017, 12:37 AM edit delete reply
I know this comment is a bit late, with the next bit of the webcomic already posted, but...Fuse would've been up against a blonde monster, not a brunette (because her hair wasn't dyed brown back then).

Oh! And he sold Queen, did he? Does he perhaps know of any suppliers (or was that answered back when they anti-Queened him)?
Guest 14th Oct 2017, 9:13 AM edit delete reply
"everybody got it from somebody who got it from somebody" -Grizwald (I think, anyways), implying that nobody really knew where it came from, where it started. Or if you wanted to kill off/blood Queen suppliers in general, regardless of position on the pyramid of mind control drug, it's a nice idea in theory but similar stuff has already been discussed. End conclusions were that Jane is too nice to kill that many like that and she's also not going to blood random people for the sake of blooding them, either.
winger 27th Mar 2018, 10:07 PM edit delete reply
ok i know for a fact that glow stick is spining